~DeaR GrandmuM~

25th oCt 2008....

Me, mama n abah balik kampung to visit wan..we all visit her last pon time raya..but mama keep on calling mak long everyday to get info bout wan..tnye pasal keadaan die...everything seems ok..boleh mkn but still using the tube n still xleh ckp...n alhamdulillah pakcik n brahim (die dah mcm pangkat pakcik la..die nih sgt2 baik even die x kawin n keadaan die mcm x terurus) ade, so boleh la tgk2 kan wan since makcik aku pon x bape sihat after die kne stroke past 3 years ago..so tangan makcik aku belah kanan mcm lemah jgk...

Then masa smpai kampung n terus tgk wan dlm bilik..she keeps on looking at the window..n mcm kisah x kisah kiteorg dtg...we all panggil2 die but die toleh sikit2 jer...then mama n i lepak2 dlm bilik die, urut2 tgn die n borak2 with brahim..n this time, i start to feel the pain...wan baring ats katil but kepala die asik terlentok ke bhg kiri..bile kiteorg betolkan position kepala die ke kanan sket..die akan mcm ngeyitkan muke die seolah2 die thn sakit...n ape yg kiteorg tau...kaki belah kiri die bengkak..bile pegang sikit or nk luruskan kaki die..mesti die mcm mengerang thn sakit..then, i saw her neck dah mcm melecet..merah2...n this time, i start to cry n yet...the tears fall down...i cry cry n cry..n mama also start to cry...her condition are not so good now compare dgn hari raya hari tu..

Masa raya, wan still can smile n gives a lot of respons when we ask her something...but now, it doesnt show anymore....she's become soooo weak.......after dah bagi mkn sume..i ngn mama start to change her clothes, pampers n lap2 kan badan die..then after everything settle down, we decide to go home..n i call her n bisik dkt telinga die, next week im gonna back again with bangah.i said "wan, minggu depan org balik lagi, dgn kamarul, wan nk jumpe kamarul x?" n suprisingly, she respons like "hmmmmm.....".(my second bro nih ddk kat kmpung masa kecik, wan i yg jaga smp umur 6 thn)..before this die mcm bwt xtau jer bile kiteorg tnye die ape2..n once agin, i cud see her eyes mcm berair n merah2 sket. i know she's crying.i told mama n we feel soooo sad n mcm rs xnak balik...but ya, kiteorg kne jgk kuatkan semangat n redha dgn ape yg jadi skarang nih..she's already 88yrs old...and alhamdulillah cuz die xde sakit ape2 yg kronik..this is the only symptom of sakit tua (regarding on what my bro told us).

ya..bende nih sgt menyedarkan i cuz untill one time, i akn lalui jugak keadaan nih..hmmm...

*dear god....................................................................................amin.....*